o___o I can't handle the stress on this account anymore xD

I'm going back to my ~MelloLawliet Account.

PLEASE WATCHERS.

Watch me there.

I'm not going to upload all my stuff onto that account right away. But over time I will upload it all back over there.

I'm retarded like that.

THANK YOU~~

Yay? 160 Confessions or things about me that I'm sure nobody cares about.

1] I'd be surprised if somebody actually read this all the way through.
2] I hate typing these things. It gives me a headache.
3] I love chewing gum, but I hardly ever chew it because it kills my jaw and it makes me grind my teeth at night when I'm trying to FAWKING SLEEP D<
4] I love coloring.
5] I love sharpies.
6] I love the SMELL of sharpies.
7] I'm a photographer. Even though everybody already knew this.
8] I tried out for the English voice for Near in Death Note.
9] I didn't get the fucking part >_> Which pissed me off. But it was expected.
10] I love Dance music. Not Rave, Techno, Trance. But DANCE!

11] I love giving people hugs.
12] I like being mistaken for a girl.
13] I love being chased by fan girls because I look like Mello xD.
14] I love talking on MSN Messenger.
15] NO! I don't have any other messenger except Yahoo. But I don't use it because I think it sucks. And I can't remember my password or my security questions.
16] I love my sons and daughters.
17] I have a fetish for hot pink things.
18] I listen to SiriusXM Radio all the fucking time.
19] Fuck is my favorite curse word.
20] I love my cell phone, though I'm getting a new one next month on the 22nd of April.

21] My serivice is Verizon. I fawking luff it.
22] I love surveys, but then I hate them when they come to these.
23] Masturbating is fucking gross.
24] Drugs are fucked up.
25] I hate druggies.
26] I have an addiction to dA.
27] My son Kyle, likes child porn.
28] My daughter Lyn, dislikes birds.
29] I read Manga. (Who doesn't?)
30] I have a black cover on my phone that has silver stars on it.

31] I hate Misa.
32] Light's hot.
33] Mello's fuckin smokin
34] Matt's fawking awesome and hawt.
35] I love sushi.
36] I'm a very selfish person that doesn't like other people.
37] I don't know how to dance.
38] One of my friends doesn't know how to say Owl.
39] I'm obsessed with long hair.
40] I don't like people. I'm not a people person at all.

41] I've been told I was heartless. I agree with them.
42] I cry easily. And I hate it.
43] Some people think I'm weird because I cut my hair like Mellos.
44] One of my best friends is moving away back to Kansas City, and it makes me cry.
45] I wrote him a letter about it and he didn't understand it, then threw the paper away. It stabbed me in the heart.
46] I'm no good at these surveys. I always put something really pointless that nobody really cares about.
47] Nobody cares about me IRL. They all wish I would go away and die.
48] I believe that nobody would miss me if I died.
49] I'm in love with Bill Kaulitz. Lulz. For who he is and not because of his money. xD
50] I have a pair of glasses but I never wear them like I should.

51] I've never kissed a girl x_x Only guys.
52] Sometimes, I like to sit alone in a room in the dark in the middle of the floor during thunder storms. It makes me feel significant in my own mind.
53] I hate it when people don't knock when they want to come into my room.
54] I hate it when there's no food in the refrigerator but there's too much of it that I don't want.
55] I get up and start walking but forget where I'm going, and I cuss myself out because of it.
56] I have slight tourettes.
57] I have PTSD from my mother.
58] None of the bones in my body are actually connected, but somehow I'm not disabled in any way. I can still do everything everybody else can do.
59] I'm a transsexual.
60] I hate cereal.

61] I go overboard with the sugar in my coffee.
62] I hate coffee, hence why I put so much sugar in it.
63] I hate chocolate. That's what makes me different from Mello.
64] I do like M&M's though.
65] I like recess pieces more though.
66] I want a fucking elevator in my house.
67] I hate walking down all the stairs in my house with a bowl of soup.
68] I don't fall down the stairs, I fall up the stairs.
69] Every time I walk out a door, I have to look up at the arch way, in fear of something being there and falling on me.
70] I have to fall asleep to music.

71] I wake up every morning with a cat on my face >_>
72] People think I'm weird because I put sugar in my milk.
73] I can't sit up straight.
74] I walk like L because I have a curve in my back from my mother breaking my back when I was 5.
75] I want my mom to disappear. But I have many friends that want to kill her because of the stuff she did to me.
76] I have a stalker that wont leave me alone.
77] My stalker used to be my boyfriend. But now he scares me to death.
78] I'm in a play at my school. I play a band girl and a penniless bum. >.>;;
79] I love my son very much. Though he doesn't believe me and it makes me sad.
80] I'm too fucking young to have kids.

81] I dislike children. They're too loud and ask annoying and pointless questions.
82] I'm a loner and I dislike having people around me.
83] IRL I'm not really that epic, unless you really know me and have entered my realm of trust.
84] It takes 3 years to enter my realm of trust. Sometimes 4.
85] I hate myself for letting my ex get obsessed over me. I should have ended the relationship when I had the chance.
86] The moment I stopped liking him was when he started planning out our future together.
87] I wish I had more friends.
88] I'm in debt up to my cowlick.
89] I HATE SOGGY CEREAL!
90] I love the beach, but I never go to it... And I live right next to it. And I want to move away from it.

91] I used to live in the UK. I want to go back.
92] I have a stuffy nose, so I can't sing right now.
93] I'm a self band, currently looking to be IN a band. But nobody has offered me yet.
94] I'm good friends with the police. GOOD friends. Not BAD friends.
95] I know the laws and I obey them. I turn in anybody who doesn't obey them.
96] I'm stuck up and I'm proud of it. Though I know it's a bad thing to be proud of, because it never ends up good.
97] My ears are plugged... I need to pop them.
98] I have friends but none of them really like me.
99] I write tons of songs and they're all just sitting in tons of notebooks. I've written more songs than the number of little boys Michael Jackson has molested. And that's saying something .
100] I'm going to extend this survey because I feel like it.

101] 200 Questions is too much, but oh well.
102] I'm almost positive that nobody will read this all the way through now. If you do, the least you could do is leave me a comment x_x so I know.
103] I wear tons of makeup.
104] I like to wear dresses in the winter.
105] Yes I am a male.
106] And yes I have boobs >_>
107] I had implants in January.
108] Now all of you people probably think I'm a freak now.
109] I don't care if people dislike me.
110] Me and my sister both have lip piercings.

111] I want to get my eyebrow pierced. [I've wanted it before I knew that Bill Kaulitz had one. So don't think I'm doing it because of him.]
112] I am not a christian. Though I am baptized and confirmed into my church.
113] I think that bandana's are fucking awesome.
114] I'm incest and bisexual.
115] I blame my fucking brother for making me incest.
116] When I was a wee lad, I wanted to be just like Britney Spears. LOL NOT NOW! With the way she's going. I don't think so.
117] I love guys that are good singers.
118] I'm running out of things to say.
119] The longest I've been awake is one week.
120] I see things that aren't really there.

121] I hear things that aren't there.
122] I text all the time on my cell phone.
123] I wish life was unlimited.
124] I'm terrified of death to the extreme.
125] Every time I think about life after death or life before actual birth... I get so scared. I start crying and I can't stop. It's unbelievable.
126] I hate being yelled at for useless shit.
127] Sometimes I want to throw things at people and not apologize.
128] I don't like a lot of people here on dA because of their attitudes.
129] When somebody tells me that I'm looking good one day, I take it in a bad way.
130] I have too many chores at my house.

131] I would really love to move out early.
132] I love gel pens. They're awesome.
133] People like to make fun of me, but I don't care.
134] I was made fun of in middle school for being a tranny.
135] My grades are horrid. I'm surprised I'm even in this fawking grade and not in kindergarten still.
136] I have no idea how to spell disappointed without spell checking.
137] I dislike slow texters to the extreme.
138] My favorite colors are Orange, Purple, Black, and Hot Pink. And all the Neon colors that make people go "WTF?! NEON?!"
139] I get panic attacks a lot.
140] I constantly feel like I'm dying.

141] I want to get my tongue pierced. [Not because Bill Kaulitz has it too.] I've wanted it for like 3 years now.
142] I hate fighting. Because I'm bad at it.
143] In physical fights, I always lose because I'm inexperienced.
144] I do not like change. If it's a good change, then ok. But not like.. Moving my bed into another room. No...
145] I don't want anything to change about me right now. Except that I want my piercings.
146] I collect rocks.
147] I have tons of old coca-cola bottles on a shelf behind me.
148] I'm constantly online.
149] I FAWKING HATE SKITTLES!
150] And I hate popcorn.

151] I constantly have a stomach ache due to my ulcers.
152] I don't feel like working today.
153] I think Misa would look better if she was fat Dx
154] I actually say 'epic win' and 'lolz'.
155] I tell people that they've lost the game.
156] Most of the people in my school don't even know what Anime is. And if they do, it's usually hentai that they know about.
157] I seriously don't belong in the school I'm in.
158] I wish people would accept me for who I am, and not how I am.
159] I love it when people hang all over me.
160] I act really retarded at awesome times.

LOL
I bet nobody even read all of that.

How do you deal with it?
I'm out of money.
I need to pay so many people back, along with paying bills.
I need to pay rent, or I'll be kicked out.
And I have nowhere to go.

What the hell?

I can't do this on my own.
I'm not ready for this yet.
I'm simply not ready.

I don't have a steady job that pays well.
I don't have any way of getting money to live.
I have to pay for my own food.
I have to pay for my own bills.
I have to pay for my own cell phone.
I have to pay for everything I get.. By myself.
I need help but nobody is kind enough around to help me out with a simple problem that only me is asking for.

Then.. I'll just have to live with it.
Until I run out of money.
Then I'll be living on the corner of some trashy street, begging for money with a cup that's cracked all through.
And nobody will help.

I guess that's how life goes now.

I understand teenagers these days think that nobody is listening or reading things on their cell phones. That's why parents put all these locks on their cells and computers now a days. A lot of the students get past all the locks and blocks. We're not stupid. Just because you guys are older than us, doesn't mean we're not as smart as you. But I'm not fighting for it. I'm just simply saying; Adults need to come up with something better than what they have to stop kids from sending racy text messages. There's so many ways to get around it. Once you get the picture you can send it to your computer or another secret location, then delete it off your phone. How will they get it? Some way to trace back on your phone's memory? I don't know. But what I do now, is that those kind of text messages are wrong and disturbing. I've seen people send those kind of pictures and I have reported them. I'm not for it. I'm totally against what the teenage race has gotten into, this far in life. But another arguing fact is, it's not just teenagers who do it. Adults blame it all on us. It's not even us that's doing the most of it. It's the adults. So why are you blaming us? That's my arguing fact. Stop blaming all of your mistakes on us. Sure, we do it too. But we don't do it as much. Seriously... Is that all you can do? And tell us to get lives, AND behave! We're behaving. I'd like to see most of the adults start behaving. Where do you think we get it from We get all of our bad habits from the adults. We see other people do it, so we think it's ok. I don't think so. That's not right. If I could, I'd make this entire paper public. I'd post it around the school. It's not right at all. Sexting isn't right. Adults, stop teaching us bad habits.

I hate it when this happens.
It makes me feel so bad.

You know.. When somebody leaves you... It makes you think that you weren't good enough for them. So you're not good for anybody.

Or you can be optimistic about it and say that you were 'too good' for them.

I don't know if anybody else has had this happen to them. Well actually it's a no duh it has... But it just hurts me knowing he's gone for somebody else.

And... Everything we had.... It's gone... I can't believe it..

I just wanna go die now...

I loved him so much.